“Losing yourself and finding your way back” Part 2

“Losing yourself and finding your way back” Part 2

​Losing yourself and finding your way back

It's been slightly over a year since I truly started my journey to recovery from Post-Partum Anxiety. Since then, I've written several times about my experience recovering from post-partum anxiety.

When you are in the midst of losing yourself, all you want to do is find a way back to who you know yourself to be.

In my previous post, I mentioned how my mom intervened with support. Well, she took me to the emergency room where they prescribed medication and gave me the number of local doctors who might be able to help. Well guess what, no one took my insurance! Due to being out of work, I received insurance through Obamacare, which helped me meet my basic needs but didn't cover therapists other than the ones available at a clinic.

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“Losing myself and finding my way back” Part I

“Losing myself and finding my way back” Part I

Losing myself and finding my way back

I chose the name Choose You Love for my company because it took me a long time to realize that I had to choose me and love me in order to be a better mom, partner and basically, everything.I was completely losing myself and who I was in this world. During a six month period after giving birth to my son, I knew something wasn't quite right with me but I ignored the symptoms. I ignored my concerns because I believed my main priority was my son. The problem is the symptoms didn't ignore me and eventually I had a total melt down.

Being a first-time mom, everything that came with having a child was new, exciting and scary. I had a ton of people in my life willing and able to offer guidance and advice but I was too ashamed to say anything. I felt guilty for having "sad" feelings. I was supposed to be happy with my baby and grateful that I was able to be home with him, yes I was losing myself. I would hide the "ugly" feelings from my family and refused to seek out help.

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"Over time, I felt that I was losing the parts of me that make me, well me! I realized something was wrong but couldn't place it. I lost interest in the everyday things and completely ignored the big things like sleep and SEX! It became so bad, my mother had to intervene and took me to the hospital. I was diagnosed with postpartum depression. For some time, I felt like I let myself and my son down...”

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